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“Exposed…I Am The Exhibitionist”

Jul 232012

You don’t know this side of me. The rebel, The explorer, The risk taker. You didn’t know that this side of me even existed. Sheltered, being as sheltered as I was, being as restricted as I used to be has unlocked, unleashed some hidden desires. I know of a girl, with a sexual appetite and an affinity for being a bit of an exhibitionist, for exposing herself. And as well she should. But, I was doing that well before she was born. Leave a 12, 13 year old boy alone, who has never been able to be naked outside of a bathtub, and see what happens. Hell, younger than that.

I had to be clever. My timing, right. I couldn’t risk having either of them come home and discover me….again. The deck was one of my favorite places. Go outside, take off my clothes and just sit out naked, free from everything. Free from judgement, from the negativity, from the haters. I liked being naked, outside, daring the risk of being seen. No one judges you when you’re laying out and no one is around. Yes, I would touch myself, I would get turned on. Being naked outside sends a rush through you. I’d touch my crotch, rubbing my cock, not caring at that moment if anyone sees, but also keeping in the back of my mind that anybody, or either of them could come home at anytime, which pissed me off, because it had happened. Continue reading »

“What Motivates”

Jul 232012

You might wonder what motivates me to write. To share with you some of my deepest thoughts and secrets desires. Well being that I’m a virgin might have something to do with it. (lol) But honestly, it’s beautiful, sexy women that motivate me, and believe me I know a good number of them. Yes, watching porn also provides motivation, that much needed nudge that one sometimes needs to get themselves in the mood. Whether it be the mood to have sex, or to masturbate. People have something or someone that motivates them. Sometimes, a lot of times it’s my imagination. And believe me, I have an active imagination. And I’m a day dreamer as well. Sometimes I’ll just be sitting around thinking about something completely harmless, then for no apparent reason, my thoughts shift towards sex. Either having sex with a beautiful women or my face between her legs eating her out. Can you tell that I have too much time on my hands? (lol)

A few months ago, I wrote a post that was dedicated to a woman named Dakota. Yes Dakota really does exist. And she motivated me to write. Actually she motivated me to write two posts centered around her. Two examples of how I’m motivated. And again, I watch porn, I do. Continue reading »

“What Gets Me Off”

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Jul 232012

What gets me off? That’s kind of a loaded question, with a long response. Well, for one women, often I’ll see a woman somewhere, whether I’m out or even inside getting off on porn. Hey, it happens, get the fuck off me. Let’s take this into categories.

When I go out, I’m like your typical guy. If I see a woman that I think is attractive, beautiful or even sexy, I’ll react. Now depending on how attracted I am, I’ll react different on the outside, then I do on the outside. On the outside, I’ll play it cool, be a gentlemen and look at her and like what I see. And I’ll try not to stare or to look too long, to avoid potential embarrassment later on. Now that’s on the outside, on the inside, sometimes I’m like a boiling pot, ready to explode. Sometimes I’m ready to strip off my clothes and touch myself until I cum. And sometimes even that isn’t enough. Sometimes when I look at a beautiful, sexy women I can feel my cock getting hard. And most men wouldn’t admit this in public, but I don’t care, judge if you must. Sometimes I get so distracted by a woman that I don’t notice that I cum. That may be embarrassing, but it proves to me that dispite what I thought, I can get it up, I can get an erection and I’m able to cum. (refer to my first entry-”Let’s Get Started” for further explanation and for context) Continue reading »

I Wanna Fuck You Like An Animal

Jul 232012

Yes, I know what I said before. But as I lie here, naked in bed, I think I’d like to fuck you. To stick my cock inside you and have my way with you. Thrust inside your twat, my balls slapping against you with each thrust. Each time going faster and deeper that before. I am an animal, filled with lust and rage, the likes of which you have never seen. You’re so sexy. I’ve often been afraid to use such a descriptive word. But when talking about you, I can’t resist. You are sexy. One of the sexiest creatures that I’ve ever laid eyes on.

Sometimes, I spend my days dreaming about you, fantasizing about you. What you taste like, what you’d feel like. How my cock would feel inside your soft velvet like pussy. Would you be screaming? Would you be screaming when I’d fuck you? Screaming at me all of the dirty things that until now you’ve been too afraid to say. Do you want me? Do you want me as much as I want you? Do you want me to be gentle or do you want me to pound you hard, to rock you. Do you want me to be as rough with your body as I please? And as I’m fucking you from behind, do you want me to spank you, abuse you? Call you a dirty slut or a whore?

And after I’ve exhausted both you and myself, do you want me to pull out? Do you want me to pull my dick out before I cum, or do you want me to leave it in, and flood your sweet hole with my load? If you ask me to pull out I will, and then I will jack off until my spunk squirts out of my cock all over your tits, and your stomach. And then I’ll have you get on your knees so I can squirt the rest of my hot load on your face. Continue reading »

“I Dig Tattooed Women”

Jul 192012

The truth is that some women can wear them, and some can not. For those that can, you definitely have my attention. Tattoos are an artistic statement, a statement that I find quite attractive on some women. Maybe it’s the placement of the tattoo or the design or symbol, maybe it’s the woman herself that I already find attractive and the tattoo(s) just add to that. Tattooed women, if you’ll forgive the expression turn me on. In fact as I’m writing one or two specific women come to mind. As I’m writing, I’m becoming aroused at the very thought of being with a woman with tattoos. To me there’s a certain sensuality to the tattoo, but also a tattoo or multiple tattoos on an already attractive women adds a certain “edge” to her. Something that for some may seem forbid. But isn’t that also an attraction? The forbidden? Tattooed women(and please pardon the expression) are like a forbidden fruit that you would love to have just one taste of. But you know that one taste wouldn’t be enough. You’ll get greedy and you’ll want more.

Tattoos on a woman are a painting, an abstract picture that you’d want to stare at and admire for hours. Admiring the thought, the artistic talent that it took to create such an image, an image atop an already gorgeous, sexy, sensual creature, the woman herself. So beautiful, so sexy, so desirable. And the tattoos on her body, make her all that more wanted, all that more desirable. And you know that you have to have her, to be with her. To make love to her…..To fuck her. Continue reading »

“Let’s Get Started” (originally published on April 7, 2012

Jul 192012

I sit here late at night thinking, thinking of the things that I’m missing, not doing or not being able to have. Not because of anyone else. But because of myself, my own restrictions and limitations that I unfairly place on myself. There are times, many times as of late when I want to feel what others feel. The rush, the excitement, that feeling of total pleasure that one gets. Yes I’m talking about “Sex”. But not just sex. Intimacy, Arousal, Orgasm. I want to feel that.

Here I am revealing some of my innermost feelings, thoughts, desires and emotions. When in all actuality I should be asleep. But I feel that if I don’t get this out now, I won’t be able to get it out later on. I’ve never truly been able to masterbate. To cum. Perhaps it has to do with the fact that I’m disabled. Does size matter or fit into the equation? I’m beginning to think that it does. I was given medication. (not that one. :) ) I hope it works, I hope it helps. Because this feeling, these feelings of constant arousal and wanting to clinch my cock in my hand and stroke myself into orgasm are taking a toll on me, a mental and/or emotional toll. Not to the point of insanity, oh no. But to the point where it’s sometimes hard(no pun intended) to look at and talk to and fantasize about some of the beautiful women that I know and I’ve met.

I’m slowly expanding my horizons, stretching my limits. I’m cracking that proverbial shell. The shell that’s been both a security and a curse. Continue reading »