You don’t know this side of me. The rebel, The explorer, The risk taker. You didn’t know that this side of me even existed. Sheltered, being as sheltered as I was, being as restricted as I used to be has unlocked, unleashed some hidden desires. I know of a girl, with a sexual appetite and an affinity for being a bit of an exhibitionist, for exposing herself. And as well she should. But, I was doing that well before she was born. Leave a 12, 13 year old boy alone, who has never been able to be naked outside of a bathtub, and see what happens. Hell, younger than that.
I had to be clever. My timing, right. I couldn’t risk having either of them come home and discover me….again. The deck was one of my favorite places. Go outside, take off my clothes and just sit out naked, free from everything. Free from judgement, from the negativity, from the haters. I liked being naked, outside, daring the risk of being seen. No one judges you when you’re laying out and no one is around. Yes, I would touch myself, I would get turned on. Being naked outside sends a rush through you. I’d touch my crotch, rubbing my cock, not caring at that moment if anyone sees, but also keeping in the back of my mind that anybody, or either of them could come home at anytime, which pissed me off, because it had happened.